Should I

I should be so shallow
But I decided to forfeit and be one of a kind.
Hiding behind a shallow wall with turbulence
Seeping afraid to fly
Those that say this are the same who have attempted
Acid pissed and shit.

Jealous of her love,
which doesn’t even mean shit.
I decided that I am going to live me for me.
As soon as I could say those words.
Independent from the world.
Soley on the top of a cloud,
Burping out loud.

Epic fail.
Your attempt to make me jump.
I ran over the bridge then I,
Walk on the water.
Bold like I am speaking of another lie.
Trying to love someone in this life,
Good try.

Act like you cared.
That her shallow mind is gone, escaping from her swollen lungs
Needed of some sort of help.

I should be called naïve,
After the way you spit what it is
That you call game.
Imagine the cold hearted assailant.
You are a character.
Something I would lie about.

Often lied to yourself
Which in turns meant you lying to me.
Dealing with your memories as I lay naked and
You stood there to.
Our love making is bittersweet.
Such passion erupts but then of course you have to leave.
I am your frenzy, the greatness
My wetness, oh the tightness
I thought you were all I need to be complete.

I should be so brave
And tell you.
Tell you who you are.
What you mean to me.
But I am Watergate,
You are my secret.
Some claim the rumor
You are smart to ignore it.
Caressed with a blanket.
As if I rocked you gently.

Ruined by the mere speaking
Or conversing, I can’t. Allow it.
You sanctioned me into a
Never ending journey of have not’s
I am lucky I escaped into
Make believe.