Hurt.
I admit it.
I wanted something.
So preoccupied with waiting.
It was suppose to come back.
Not move on into something else.
Misplaced and guided in the wrong direction.
I took my number sat down.
Flicked the card, repeatedly.
Waiting for a you and me.
Settled for a You her and I.
Never wanted to.
I was told to.
You were a mistake I made.
I can't call you a decsion.
Since you appeared.
I accepted you
out of trust.
Never wanted a title.
Just wanted a reality.
But the jealous rage
I produced
made me lose you.
Cried a few tears.
Only because I couldn't deal
with my reality.
Days ago, weeks ago.
I wanted the old back.
As of now I rather miss
my stop on a bus,
the way your lips taste above my gut.
I had enough, of wanting.
Being confused.
Looking like a fool.
Imaging me falling for you.
Going back to the days you were present,
distant from everyone else.
My condolences to the time wasted.
With our confused goodbye.
Can we get a real one.
A true one.
Dragging me on this train.
Let me off.
This is my stop.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Crushing
Bend over.
Normal.
Shaped as if I was falling.
Above ground
Pushed six feet under,
Thirst wave.
I sensed it for some time.
I get few points for crushing,
So I silently want you.
Normal.
Weird.
Waiting.
I can’t see myself looking.
Burden spinning.
Normal.
Shaped as if I was falling.
Above ground
Pushed six feet under,
Thirst wave.
I sensed it for some time.
I get few points for crushing,
So I silently want you.
Normal.
Weird.
Waiting.
I can’t see myself looking.
Burden spinning.
River
Every cried a million tears
My first river I named it; Dead.
Only because my swollen heart
Leaked so much blood.
The river I created
Tasted like death.
Artificial, as though I failed.
I went to this river.
I bend over just to be able to fall in.
The aura of the smell,
as though the stench was old
This river was created not by me
Just a week ago,
But my us three years ago.
I drown in my tears and this absurd blood.
My hair is soaked,
I settle for the branch
That is torn and the ironed metal top
That lays life less.
It needed me.
Way more then I need it.
I climb out the river,
Crying.
Creating a bridge.
To you.
My first river I named it; Dead.
Only because my swollen heart
Leaked so much blood.
The river I created
Tasted like death.
Artificial, as though I failed.
I went to this river.
I bend over just to be able to fall in.
The aura of the smell,
as though the stench was old
This river was created not by me
Just a week ago,
But my us three years ago.
I drown in my tears and this absurd blood.
My hair is soaked,
I settle for the branch
That is torn and the ironed metal top
That lays life less.
It needed me.
Way more then I need it.
I climb out the river,
Crying.
Creating a bridge.
To you.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Another Nightmare
Short tip
Light wrist.
Licks center.
Bitch, spit.
Say how you feel.
Don't pause.
He enters.
I yell
Hold my silver ring.
Arch my back and deal with it.
Awkward. Another secret.
Light wrist.
Licks center.
Bitch, spit.
Say how you feel.
Don't pause.
He enters.
I yell
Hold my silver ring.
Arch my back and deal with it.
Awkward. Another secret.
Nightmare
Growth of a man
who acts like a child
You love him unafraid.
Nightmares. Are nightmares.
Beauty is only skin deep.
Abort the baby
Needle in, dive out.
Decisions.
They are created,
so they can be made.
Nightmares are born, you leave
reality unafraid.
You aren't aware it happens
just sure you where there.
Face down.
In tears.
Continuing on my eyes to open
but I have to live this out.
Face down.
In tears.
Aware that I am gone.
I was killed.
I now know I was attacked
from behind.
Often left to smile at his lie.
who acts like a child
You love him unafraid.
Nightmares. Are nightmares.
Beauty is only skin deep.
Abort the baby
Needle in, dive out.
Decisions.
They are created,
so they can be made.
Nightmares are born, you leave
reality unafraid.
You aren't aware it happens
just sure you where there.
Face down.
In tears.
Continuing on my eyes to open
but I have to live this out.
Face down.
In tears.
Aware that I am gone.
I was killed.
I now know I was attacked
from behind.
Often left to smile at his lie.
We would Rather
He rathered run a marathon
than dial my number.
Afraid that he may
make a mistake
by attempting he loves me.
He would rather
love someone else then love me.
I get it.
I suck.
I know.
I fucked up.
But guess what.
I rather be known as the
girl who broke your heart
then the girl who
you can't fathom to have around
I rather miss prom all over again
Sit out on the phone with you
and miss you a milions days
and run to you when I see you
Unafraid.
I rather cry a million tears then
throw two fists your way.
Love less
heart feels smooth.
than dial my number.
Afraid that he may
make a mistake
by attempting he loves me.
He would rather
love someone else then love me.
I get it.
I suck.
I know.
I fucked up.
But guess what.
I rather be known as the
girl who broke your heart
then the girl who
you can't fathom to have around
I rather miss prom all over again
Sit out on the phone with you
and miss you a milions days
and run to you when I see you
Unafraid.
I rather cry a million tears then
throw two fists your way.
Love less
heart feels smooth.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
My High
I get high to balance out my lows.
Satisfied then I call you,
blow smoke into the phone
Silent whispers in my ear.
High pitch voice.
Heighten by the intoxication of my drug
"Your high",he says
my throat burns.
I say,"no".
I am faded.
On top of you.
Riding.
Slow then fast then just like
You like it.
Smooth feel
Deep inside
I climax.
Unafraid
I grab your hand
to thrust you farther away.
I inhale again.
Let it out.
Only to feel
what I can't.
What no one right allows me to permit.
Shit. I need to go and get high.
Satisfied then I call you,
blow smoke into the phone
Silent whispers in my ear.
High pitch voice.
Heighten by the intoxication of my drug
"Your high",he says
my throat burns.
I say,"no".
I am faded.
On top of you.
Riding.
Slow then fast then just like
You like it.
Smooth feel
Deep inside
I climax.
Unafraid
I grab your hand
to thrust you farther away.
I inhale again.
Let it out.
Only to feel
what I can't.
What no one right allows me to permit.
Shit. I need to go and get high.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Skin Deep
Standards written by the frailest man.
Taller then the lightest.
Lightest is prettier.
My skin tone is hated on.
Darker than hers
but lighter then his.
Frowns widen when you see
tits sheltered on your dashboard
Shoveled on your timeline
But's still it is skin deep.
Behind there sheltered and
abnormal thoughts hidden in there theory.
I am ugly because I am dark.
Then the white man is 10x times better then her.
Preference busts pipes.
Live and heard.
I stand above this.
I may not qualify for your unjust allergies
of colored woman
but it's cool.
I am beautiful, not looking for any type of bleach.
Not looking for acceptance.
Not asking to be wanted,
just stating theories, myself.
Taller then the lightest.
Lightest is prettier.
My skin tone is hated on.
Darker than hers
but lighter then his.
Frowns widen when you see
tits sheltered on your dashboard
Shoveled on your timeline
But's still it is skin deep.
Behind there sheltered and
abnormal thoughts hidden in there theory.
I am ugly because I am dark.
Then the white man is 10x times better then her.
Preference busts pipes.
Live and heard.
I stand above this.
I may not qualify for your unjust allergies
of colored woman
but it's cool.
I am beautiful, not looking for any type of bleach.
Not looking for acceptance.
Not asking to be wanted,
just stating theories, myself.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Love(he)r
Reality prohibits those uninvited.
Everything else is a joke.
Gate Closed.
No more attendees.
Tweet away to pity thyself
with your lavish tonuge
bloody finger nails
and scorned self esteem.
Pity.
I can't throw
anymore to you!
Escaping from your mountain,
excuse me for climbing higher
than you.
Everything else is a joke.
Gate Closed.
No more attendees.
Tweet away to pity thyself
with your lavish tonuge
bloody finger nails
and scorned self esteem.
Pity.
I can't throw
anymore to you!
Escaping from your mountain,
excuse me for climbing higher
than you.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Dear Lie
Dear Lie,
You narrated the structure
Of mine and yours.
Life happens.
The versions of yours and mines, varies.
Seldom smiles embark my face,
Glittered eyes dried out.
Smiles embarked.
Hidden memories.
Dear, Lie
You hurt me.
Left and there I was battered.
Standing up to the beat
Of my faith in us.
Dear Lie,
I loved you.
Even as I hurt you.
Bloody nosed dried up
Hydrates everything
I wish
I had the heart to say.
Dear Lie,
My hands are like sex
A drug everyone deploys
The reaction of next time
Hidden behind a never ending; tomorrow
Dear Lie,
I cherished us.
Blinked twice, often
Just to be sure
You didn’t disappear.
Dear Lie,
You blinded me
Covered my eyes so I couldn’t think,
From the back as I sat,
Face down covered in air.
Dear Lie,
I lied.
Why are you hurt?
You lied too.
Stop laughing.
I am hurting, bleeding from my liver.
Dear Lie,
Goodbye.
Tired of lying to me, too.
Liar, continue to lie to thyself.
Goodbye.
You narrated the structure
Of mine and yours.
Life happens.
The versions of yours and mines, varies.
Seldom smiles embark my face,
Glittered eyes dried out.
Smiles embarked.
Hidden memories.
Dear, Lie
You hurt me.
Left and there I was battered.
Standing up to the beat
Of my faith in us.
Dear Lie,
I loved you.
Even as I hurt you.
Bloody nosed dried up
Hydrates everything
I wish
I had the heart to say.
Dear Lie,
My hands are like sex
A drug everyone deploys
The reaction of next time
Hidden behind a never ending; tomorrow
Dear Lie,
I cherished us.
Blinked twice, often
Just to be sure
You didn’t disappear.
Dear Lie,
You blinded me
Covered my eyes so I couldn’t think,
From the back as I sat,
Face down covered in air.
Dear Lie,
I lied.
Why are you hurt?
You lied too.
Stop laughing.
I am hurting, bleeding from my liver.
Dear Lie,
Goodbye.
Tired of lying to me, too.
Liar, continue to lie to thyself.
Goodbye.
Set up
I trust no one.
Love never again.
Heartless
Weak shit.
Blood boiled.
Smooth vexed.
Back turned.
Short temper.
Ice melts.
Again.
Again.
Set up
left dead.
Returns back again.
With nothing with a smile.
Your stupid.
It's not love.
You forget why,
after all this time.
You were playing
another again.
Game ended.
You left him lose because you won't win.
Best set up ever.
In his straggle game of pretend.
Love never again.
Heartless
Weak shit.
Blood boiled.
Smooth vexed.
Back turned.
Short temper.
Ice melts.
Again.
Again.
Set up
left dead.
Returns back again.
With nothing with a smile.
Your stupid.
It's not love.
You forget why,
after all this time.
You were playing
another again.
Game ended.
You left him lose because you won't win.
Best set up ever.
In his straggle game of pretend.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Sucide
Currently looking for a noose
to hang from the chandelier.
Covered mouth to choke in the screams
I must rid the world, of me.
Silent cries.
Wet landing.
Loose heart.
I climb the chair.
Freeze.
Think about reality
I jump higher
Noose in hand.
Thrown over
Kick the chair
to hang from the chandelier.
Covered mouth to choke in the screams
I must rid the world, of me.
Silent cries.
Wet landing.
Loose heart.
I climb the chair.
Freeze.
Think about reality
I jump higher
Noose in hand.
Thrown over
Kick the chair
Silent High Thought
Is this suffice
the space
I throw
I miss you
But I do as I you say
Minus you
I haven't allowed myself
to stray
after you decided to change
I smartly wait.
Unafraid.
Don't be stupid.
I won't take you back.
Just because I miss you.
We would have to start back
at square one
We each have our own gun
games people play when they want someone.
Rules they make when they
don't want to deal
when they want to control.
Roll a blunt to this one.
the space
I throw
I miss you
But I do as I you say
Minus you
I haven't allowed myself
to stray
after you decided to change
I smartly wait.
Unafraid.
Don't be stupid.
I won't take you back.
Just because I miss you.
We would have to start back
at square one
We each have our own gun
games people play when they want someone.
Rules they make when they
don't want to deal
when they want to control.
Roll a blunt to this one.
Withdrawal
Can we never be
I don't ever want to loathe you
I love just this
How we are slowly slipping.
I will knock you up
before I knock you down.
Pound out your rib cage
without
uttering a sound of relief
it's the feeling you get
when your without
Withdrawal from the one
you think you love
but never once loved you at all.
I don't ever want to loathe you
I love just this
How we are slowly slipping.
I will knock you up
before I knock you down.
Pound out your rib cage
without
uttering a sound of relief
it's the feeling you get
when your without
Withdrawal from the one
you think you love
but never once loved you at all.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Kiss
People have the tendency to fall in love but as soon as love happens. They don’t know what to do with it. They always want to be in love but once it happens. People are ideology obsessed with the fraction of what will never be. I love him. I swear I do, But I am not willing to lose me in the quest for a you and I . I love me more than him. I can’t understand why people become so worked up on relationships. They are so focused on that phone call that never comes. The kiss that means no more than a kiss. I know you guys know about them kisses. The kisses that leave you wanting to stop kissing and began the act of sex . The kisses that are supported by lust and wants. Not the desire to kiss and experience a connection that no one but you to understand.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Just Love You
Most people are looking for love and have been settlings for people that aren’t what they really want.
I am tired of it. I am tired of people telling there heart what they think they want to hear. Let’s just be humans about this.
I messed up. You did to. Let’s stop acting like we don’t need each other!
Just love you. Is my new movement. Once you love you everything else falls into place.
Some girls say they will never be loved for they are. They will be wanted for what they have and what they have is a vagina. This is the truth of the situation.
But once you have loved once. Truly loved once, you feel powerful enough to say.
I was love. You often long to sleep with that love whispering sweet loves in your ears but what you fail to conquer is that love has issues.
Instead of love, looking for love and looking for someone to love you.
Just love YOU!
That is what pays off.
That is what pays off.
That is what matters.
Not who whispers they love you.
Look in the mirror and say I love me.
I am tired of it. I am tired of people telling there heart what they think they want to hear. Let’s just be humans about this.
I messed up. You did to. Let’s stop acting like we don’t need each other!
Just love you. Is my new movement. Once you love you everything else falls into place.
Some girls say they will never be loved for they are. They will be wanted for what they have and what they have is a vagina. This is the truth of the situation.
But once you have loved once. Truly loved once, you feel powerful enough to say.
I was love. You often long to sleep with that love whispering sweet loves in your ears but what you fail to conquer is that love has issues.
Instead of love, looking for love and looking for someone to love you.
Just love YOU!
That is what pays off.
That is what pays off.
That is what matters.
Not who whispers they love you.
Look in the mirror and say I love me.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Cry Not
The beauty of it all
Is that is happened
Is that it failed
Smile, your beautiful
Plus you are blessed and
did all you could
you made it back to here
He reminds me of the man
who beat me
shattered me in my dream
I had to stay sleep
I had a silent cry in the dream of goodbye
Everyone falls in water
But not everyone lays there
boogery nosed up and cries.
Some just move on.
Is that is happened
Is that it failed
Smile, your beautiful
Plus you are blessed and
did all you could
you made it back to here
He reminds me of the man
who beat me
shattered me in my dream
I had to stay sleep
I had a silent cry in the dream of goodbye
Everyone falls in water
But not everyone lays there
boogery nosed up and cries.
Some just move on.
Friday, March 12, 2010
I want
I want...
a knight in shining armor
I want...
a diamond in the rough
I want...
a man not a boy
but I see what this world wants
to throw at me
I ain't weak
I simply fell to knees until
I senses better
I wait at my chamber.
Alone.
Forever.
I want nothing.
Just some real goodbyes.
a knight in shining armor
I want...
a diamond in the rough
I want...
a man not a boy
but I see what this world wants
to throw at me
I ain't weak
I simply fell to knees until
I senses better
I wait at my chamber.
Alone.
Forever.
I want nothing.
Just some real goodbyes.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Fall
All the pain
I threw your way
I caught it like cooties
I hide behind a shallow wall.
Hearing you fall for someone else
I haven't learned to play pretend
instead I am striking out memories
Love less heart strong
The wait is over
I am not in love with you
Shattered glass thrown in
this shoot out
of respect.
I spit my gum out
I gave up caring
I threw your way
I caught it like cooties
I hide behind a shallow wall.
Hearing you fall for someone else
I haven't learned to play pretend
instead I am striking out memories
Love less heart strong
The wait is over
I am not in love with you
Shattered glass thrown in
this shoot out
of respect.
I spit my gum out
I gave up caring
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Defeat
Your breathe was all I wanted
to nourish
but your anger
throws me
out of the ball park
A-Rod don't run
I am not a team player
Steroid up
not giving up
the mentally of a man sucks.
Give a fuck
when you don't make it to the World Series
You have a good team
so I throw my mitt it.
to nourish
but your anger
throws me
out of the ball park
A-Rod don't run
I am not a team player
Steroid up
not giving up
the mentally of a man sucks.
Give a fuck
when you don't make it to the World Series
You have a good team
so I throw my mitt it.
Love
Love is the most stupidest thing, ever. Don't you get it. Those who believe in love, in my eyes are stupid. They don't, they don't have any logic. They trust there heart and leave there mind alone.
Monday, March 8, 2010
On that Marriage
Not enough adverbs to
justify the actions of
All I have is your visuals.
I want to paint your picture
but I have sense been blinded
You have been branded
unlike something new
Sip this tonic
Play with time
Lose in the end
life is bliss
you were no more
than my first contestant.
Bloody knees from screaming
at the top of my lungs
Tip of the curve
Exercise the journey of have not's
Naked striped
Burden with your love
Branded unafraid stays
Forced my posts of praise
Never ending grace
Hard, really great debate
Help me understand
Your misunderstood
Justify nothing
Let me just say Congrads.
You have my blessing
Hopefully now you can
look at the screen
simply to her not to
me what she means to you
Doing what you plan will
do nothing ruin you
not me.
justify the actions of
All I have is your visuals.
I want to paint your picture
but I have sense been blinded
You have been branded
unlike something new
Sip this tonic
Play with time
Lose in the end
life is bliss
you were no more
than my first contestant.
Bloody knees from screaming
at the top of my lungs
Tip of the curve
Exercise the journey of have not's
Naked striped
Burden with your love
Branded unafraid stays
Forced my posts of praise
Never ending grace
Hard, really great debate
Help me understand
Your misunderstood
Justify nothing
Let me just say Congrads.
You have my blessing
Hopefully now you can
look at the screen
simply to her not to
me what she means to you
Doing what you plan will
do nothing ruin you
not me.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Whispering Eye Closed
My whispering eye
leaks from everything
it lacks
I blend in the passion
of the memories
I may damn near relapse
Everything I ever knew
Erased
I cherish my whispering eye
for the rest of my days,
it will cry but it will be okay.
leaks from everything
it lacks
I blend in the passion
of the memories
I may damn near relapse
Everything I ever knew
Erased
I cherish my whispering eye
for the rest of my days,
it will cry but it will be okay.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Junkie
Sells his latest foes
for that next inhalation
Scratches his head like a
real dope fiend
You love this fool
even though
he sold your love a few times
minus the fact
that he done lied
a million and two times
you cherish him like
his veins aren't bruised
Hoping that no one notices
it, or call you a fool.
But everyone notice
that the junkie got you fooled.
You shiver
unexpectedly you quiver next
You stay around even though
this junkie ain't done.
He pulls up his shirt
his lazy eye closes as
he shoots up another one.
for that next inhalation
Scratches his head like a
real dope fiend
You love this fool
even though
he sold your love a few times
minus the fact
that he done lied
a million and two times
you cherish him like
his veins aren't bruised
Hoping that no one notices
it, or call you a fool.
But everyone notice
that the junkie got you fooled.
You shiver
unexpectedly you quiver next
You stay around even though
this junkie ain't done.
He pulls up his shirt
his lazy eye closes as
he shoots up another one.
Nazma
When I do it
I do it well
I rather stand for something
than nothing
laughed at
then smiled upon
I rather wear dark colors
I prefer blue
I stand on my tip toes
I treat this world like
the urbanized zoo
I tie my hands behind my back
when ever I get confused
Lucky you
I decided to do this
I be on my Nazma shit
I do it well
I rather stand for something
than nothing
laughed at
then smiled upon
I rather wear dark colors
I prefer blue
I stand on my tip toes
I treat this world like
the urbanized zoo
I tie my hands behind my back
when ever I get confused
Lucky you
I decided to do this
I be on my Nazma shit
Kanye'D
Even though it must be done
No more shots fired.
Not wasting anymore
bullets with my favorite point.
Cope feels on the latest solider
Never again
no longer wounded
this war is over.
Dare you
I dare you to do it
Download it and
tune in.
I dare you to do it
fastforward and
press pretend.
I dare you to do it
stand in the snow naked
pledge to be wanted unafraid.
I dare you to do it
bathe in fire,
without contemplating.
I dare you to do it
rub bleach in your eye
and count to five with your eyes opened wide.
I dare you to do it all.
Mean it all and
say it all.
Like I wasn't and
am still not your all.
I dare you to do "it".
Download it and
tune in.
I dare you to do it
fastforward and
press pretend.
I dare you to do it
stand in the snow naked
pledge to be wanted unafraid.
I dare you to do it
bathe in fire,
without contemplating.
I dare you to do it
rub bleach in your eye
and count to five with your eyes opened wide.
I dare you to do it all.
Mean it all and
say it all.
Like I wasn't and
am still not your all.
I dare you to do "it".
Replacement Girl
I'd never try to replace you.
Or knock your flow
like a judge who heartlessly
don't give a fuck
I'm sorta cold but I am strong
don't need another you
to move on.
I brace these tides
I walk in strides
I don't hide,
but then again
I was never you
Just addicted and it's sickening
I just deleted it
Want a new start
Someone totally different from
YOU!
Or knock your flow
like a judge who heartlessly
don't give a fuck
I'm sorta cold but I am strong
don't need another you
to move on.
I brace these tides
I walk in strides
I don't hide,
but then again
I was never you
Just addicted and it's sickening
I just deleted it
Want a new start
Someone totally different from
YOU!
Sorry
I hate the word sorry
Used it too much
never heard it enough
So I won't mention sorry
because you may feel the way I do
It seems like there is never enough
Time in a day
Afraid I might lose you
Don't go
though
I am learning,
still to cope with reality.
Freeze and rewind us, Please.
Used it too much
never heard it enough
So I won't mention sorry
because you may feel the way I do
It seems like there is never enough
Time in a day
Afraid I might lose you
Don't go
though
I am learning,
still to cope with reality.
Freeze and rewind us, Please.
Loopt
Keep me out of the loop
like a fresh pair of coopers
and the jokes about Fab's tooth.
Trying not to laugh
we are both thinking in our head,
if only shorty knew :
We learned that it rained
really heavy in April
Next week
Sweetie look out your window
Next month
It's just another month
The same shopaholic
who can't really afford it
Spends so much
You call her to ask for a favor
She denies you quick
Your lovely life bones
Unfold, I slit wrists
You will when he is done
with you
Ever been to Atlantic City?
No need to
He will be all you need
Your his gamble
Repeat after me
Red Light
Green Light
Leave
No stay
I am the cold hearted bitch
heartless
I put you
in the loop.
Your welcome.
Crip.
like a fresh pair of coopers
and the jokes about Fab's tooth.
Trying not to laugh
we are both thinking in our head,
if only shorty knew :
We learned that it rained
really heavy in April
Next week
Sweetie look out your window
Next month
It's just another month
The same shopaholic
who can't really afford it
Spends so much
You call her to ask for a favor
She denies you quick
Your lovely life bones
Unfold, I slit wrists
You will when he is done
with you
Ever been to Atlantic City?
No need to
He will be all you need
Your his gamble
Repeat after me
Red Light
Green Light
Leave
No stay
I am the cold hearted bitch
heartless
I put you
in the loop.
Your welcome.
Crip.
March 5, 2010
The birth of a bastard
Clock this
I write, he blinks once
times the time I attempt to write rhymes
I back space( You know delete)
I want to see what I wrote so I
tap Control Z, quickly
I read and decide
that's not what I want to say
I spit acid into the words and exhale
Now I can breathe
Raise fingers type
This isn't even what I believe
Hurt people, Hurt people
I just hand it in
Accept the grade
I didn't put in enough work
I decide to just say FUCK it
Not realizing I was saying it to you
Lane focused
Closed open
Break fold
Can you comprehend us ?
You are getting a tad bit bold!
I am going to say this
Continue holding on to your balls
as if your stubbornly
walking on all fours
Not even calling you a dog
because even them bastards are loyal
Wood flow
Glue bold
Bite lips
Her actions are suddenly spoken
Matter to one, hated my every one else
Dirty rice in a clean bowl
Eat up this last year has just been told
Clock this
I write, he blinks once
times the time I attempt to write rhymes
I back space( You know delete)
I want to see what I wrote so I
tap Control Z, quickly
I read and decide
that's not what I want to say
I spit acid into the words and exhale
Now I can breathe
Raise fingers type
This isn't even what I believe
Hurt people, Hurt people
I just hand it in
Accept the grade
I didn't put in enough work
I decide to just say FUCK it
Not realizing I was saying it to you
Lane focused
Closed open
Break fold
Can you comprehend us ?
You are getting a tad bit bold!
I am going to say this
Continue holding on to your balls
as if your stubbornly
walking on all fours
Not even calling you a dog
because even them bastards are loyal
Wood flow
Glue bold
Bite lips
Her actions are suddenly spoken
Matter to one, hated my every one else
Dirty rice in a clean bowl
Eat up this last year has just been told
J Train Jamaican.
Why these dudes falling for me
Sitting across writing poetry
Never once spoke to me
Tries to put it in my cardigan
Breathes light, he smiles, then sighes
Thinks twice
Mumbles something like,
"Maybe I am not the type of girl
he should be fucking with."
I grin and mouth,
"Smart decision".
Sitting across writing poetry
Never once spoke to me
Tries to put it in my cardigan
Breathes light, he smiles, then sighes
Thinks twice
Mumbles something like,
"Maybe I am not the type of girl
he should be fucking with."
I grin and mouth,
"Smart decision".
Friday, March 5, 2010
Sick
You were suppose to answer
Not notice my tears.
Make me laugh
and forget my sorrow
You added to it
Who is to blame
I wish I had the guts to say thanks.
Those where choked up
Asshole, I would be surprised if
you Forget.
Not notice my tears.
Make me laugh
and forget my sorrow
You added to it
Who is to blame
I wish I had the guts to say thanks.
Those where choked up
Asshole, I would be surprised if
you Forget.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Heart Stealer
This is my heart that you are stealing.
The cold bloody void
I want it back
Be a Man about it
hand it back
I can laugh too
High pitch
Gun high
fire spit
Looks inside
Still empty
Be heart full and smile
Lost like Mr. Thicke
I am gone like Kanye
The cold bloody void
I want it back
Be a Man about it
hand it back
I can laugh too
High pitch
Gun high
fire spit
Looks inside
Still empty
Be heart full and smile
Lost like Mr. Thicke
I am gone like Kanye
Poetry
I use to have a diary. But that died when my brothers read it. Then I wrote poetry and lyrics. But then I wanted to write in my diary as I got older. My mother invaded that. After that I wrote nothing. I just said how I feel.
Recently I have just written out my feeling, accepting them as life. That's not realistic now I am back to poetry. It's exciting.
Recently I have just written out my feeling, accepting them as life. That's not realistic now I am back to poetry. It's exciting.
Honor
In honor of our love
I leave, I run
I let you go
Have what you call fun
Safest thing to do
in a blizzard of our love
In honor of our love
I call, I text
But now I let you go
Smartest thing to do
Maybe these tsunamis will end.
No more floods this goodbye has
just begin.
I leave, I run
I let you go
Have what you call fun
Safest thing to do
in a blizzard of our love
In honor of our love
I call, I text
But now I let you go
Smartest thing to do
Maybe these tsunamis will end.
No more floods this goodbye has
just begin.
Life Happens.
Procrastinate
then you lie to yourself
Your this solider; fall
Crept circumstance
Arrogant mood swings
Justified
Wipes sweat
Raises gun.
Hold shoulders back.
Slams body into floor
Reaches
Shots fired.
Looks at her lifeless hand
a few feet away; detached
Smokey tears run down her charcoal face
She can't cry.
She opens her mouth.
No one hears.
She sucks in the air
Sudden spoofs,
Breeze of wind
blinds her
Her one hand looks weak
She rolls into a bottom lit pit.
she DIES;
with her mouth open.
Her heart still breathing;
but her pulse dead.
Life Happens.
Not every solider makes it.
then you lie to yourself
Your this solider; fall
Crept circumstance
Arrogant mood swings
Justified
Wipes sweat
Raises gun.
Hold shoulders back.
Slams body into floor
Reaches
Shots fired.
Looks at her lifeless hand
a few feet away; detached
Smokey tears run down her charcoal face
She can't cry.
She opens her mouth.
No one hears.
She sucks in the air
Sudden spoofs,
Breeze of wind
blinds her
Her one hand looks weak
She rolls into a bottom lit pit.
she DIES;
with her mouth open.
Her heart still breathing;
but her pulse dead.
Life Happens.
Not every solider makes it.
This girl is Me
This girl is scared. I am really afraid. I just don't know of what. I ruin everything, I set out to do. I suck as a person. This isn't a low self-esteem post because I know there is nothing wrong with me. I just have a few flaws that I need to work on. I miss the people I have taken for guarantee. There are a few of you. I don't know what to do. So I am not doing anything. I am just living life. Living life day by day waiting for 2012 because life is worthless, pointless.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Letter to my Next
I am jealous. I rarely trust. I have mood swings. I have anger issues but I am still a great person. I change moods sometimes, I think to much.I will talk to you from time to time but I won't fall. Never again. I believe something and stick to my beliefs. All my friends say I love hard, but I won't love you. Don't worry.
I tried loving people I ended up love less. So now I am heartless so maybe me not caring will lower the percentages of all of my flaws. Shit, this is what I heard there are probably more. I have not a clue.
I tried loving people I ended up love less. So now I am heartless so maybe me not caring will lower the percentages of all of my flaws. Shit, this is what I heard there are probably more. I have not a clue.
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