Yesterday

I know that my actions yesterday were reckless, yesterday. I wished I cared. I swear I do. But I don’t in this situation. I never want to be labeled as a victim but if the shoe fits I am going wear it. That’s my only response. For the sake of closure, I am going to say this.

Hurt people, hurt people.

Last year around this time I was depressed. Going shopping and all types of crazy shit to make myself feel better. Since I knew for those moments I wasn’t locked in my room I would be pondering my phone wishing it was to ring and for someone to say it was a joke.

My take on love is the following.
You never stop loving. But there comes a point when you can’t forget how much harm someone has caused you. And you move on.

So yes, I knew from the end of our relationship that I was reckless. Wishing for something that I was so much better than. A few friends told me that didn’t matter. I had to learn on my own and I did.

So I never settle, for anything.
And yes I am currently talking to someone. And yes I love this said person but I’d rather leave as soon as I feel like I am

a. Putting more time in then they are.
b. Feel like I’m settling.

In relationships you leave with nothing. But the respect you have for yourself.