Hey,

Despite the fact that I am crying now, I wasn't crying over you. Well I was. But there was a million other things. You were just the icing on the cake. There are quiet a bit of things going on and i'm stressed. I firgured you would calm me down. Help me laugh, listen to my corny jokes, etc.But I cried and I scared you away. I am sorry. It has nothing to do with you.I am emotional what girl isn't.

I don't love you and I don't miss you and I care about you enough.
You see I told you what you wanted to hear.

But I do want to see you, I forgot what you look like.
I forgot what your lips taste like, and off the record. I am mad at you, not crying about it. Though. I rarely cry. I don't ever express how I feel to the person I feel something for I just move on.

I know you are busy, I am busy too. But the thing is I am willing to make time for you where as you won't for me.

I thought about this really hard. Harder than I ever thought about anything concerning you. As you know I have been contemplating the ending of this "game" *don't say it's not a game, because it's nothing more* I have decided that, *clears throat*, maybe one day we can pick up where we left off. Since you clearly are no longer interested.

It was fun, and I thought I meant something to you. That's why I asked you and us happened. But then you disappeared. Epic, wasn't it. I thought maybe at least two seasons but you didn't. It's cool.

Everything ends for the reality to begin.
I feel bad, I basically told you I wasn't going anywhere and I am giving up and I told you I wouldn't remember you when school starts another lie. I think about you all the time. I miss you , alot. Again off the record.

I am sorry. I like to get my thoughts out this time I shared them with you.