Sober Thought

Your into deep
Almost married but still in love with me,
Amazing how love comes “undone”
based on a few lies
about what went where and for how long
and you left trying to understand what I believe I meant to you.
When you can't seem to see what you current means
to your future
So you throw out rings
Instead of being a REAL man
Fixing the problem that exists,
Create new ones,
I sit back
First in tears
Trying to make sense of my reality
Then yours,
I cringe out in yells.
No longer allowing you to be able
To ruin my day.

Helplessly I exist,
It’s as if I never left.
You need my presence
Still trying to figure out why,
You do the absurd things you do

You allow me to penetrate you life
with my twisted thoughts
I do it only because I know I can.
I can have you when I want you
and when I have you
I do it well
Satisfying you leaving you wanting more.
But you have to go.

But you are throwing rings at childhood sweet hearts
leaving me as the other when I was the main
not ashamed to say
I cheated
allowed another to do me
when you refused
why are you bad
I dare not ask!

I refuse to wipe a tear from your delicate face
I cringe at your thoughts for me in your life
when you want your cake and to eat it too.
Publishing emotions allowing me to wear it.
Proud yet unsure.
I endure it.
Was here before it all,
Plan on being there when it all falls down.
Will she?


Head low,
Standing in the same place where you promised me
Our love would always be the same.
Head low,
Standing in the same place where you promised me
Our love would never been put in a challenge.

But it is,
Currently dealing with some
Sick bitch who stole you from me
I know if I ruin this for you
Then I am playing myself and
You may cut off of ties with me