Past Tense "Love"

I’ve been in love,
So deep in love
Where I felt like I would die if he does.

I’ve been in love,
So deep in love,
Where I thought he was the one.

I’ve been in love
So deep in love
Where I found myself blinded.

But it’s never been anything fully implanted as committed love.
Anything where I felt it was true.
It felt sure, sure as the first kiss and defiant as the last one.

But it’s never been anything more than some
Distinct poem written and shared on the world wide web
for all who cared to read.

But it’s never enough, to say love.
It’s a thought.
Tell yourself anything and you are bound to believe it.

So I believed I’d been in love.
When in fact I was trapped in
A crazy unseen world everyone forced
Themselves to visit.

Now I know I haven’t been in love,
I have just devoted my all into
Someone who I needed when I needed them.